When the brain won’t produce words
Hi friend!
I’ve had a great December and January. Then something went completely haywire with my digestion and I lost a ton of energy.
I have periods where I try stop taking a supplement to test if it is really something my body needs. This time I was testing what would happen if I don’t take probiotics. I had done this since December and had actually forgotten about it until I got very unwell and had excruciatingly painful stomach cramps, so bad I couldn’t sleep for a week.
One evening, I had a serious conversation with my body and said “Please tell me what you need!”
That night I woke up with the words PROBIOTICS rummaging around in my head.
The next day, I took my probiotics and I could immediately feel the difference. It took a few days for the cramps to subside, but it’s all gone now and my sleep is back to normal.
But I’m not at the baseline I was back in December and January and my voice is horrendous. My brain is exhausted and I have trouble being creative with words at the moment.
So not much music is happening at the moment. There is simply not enough energy in my body for that right now.
I came across this Instagram post of a music artist making handcrafted lyric sheets and I was immediately inspired. I’ve always wanted to do my own stuff like that, but I’m no visual artist (is the story I’ve been telling myself). I used to draw illustrations for my old blog, but drawing anything life-like or anything where I need to hold an image in my brain is just not possible.
So I googled abstract art and happened across some wonderful artists and teachers who teach abstract water colour and mixed media.
I had some basic tools and I tried it out with a set-up in my bed.
This is what has come out of it so far. I’m still in the beginning stages and learning different techniques, but it is finally something that doesn’t hurt my brain and that I can do on medium energy days.
Let me know what you think in the comments!
Tell me…
What are your go-to creative projects when you need to relax?
I’d love to know in the comments!
Have you listened to There Are No More Heroes?
I wrote this song when I felt the world had turned its back on me. I felt doctors had given up, friends had given up, family had given up. I felt disillusioned with the world, but something grew inside me that helped me carry on.
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